Friday, January 02, 2004
hELLo... tODay wE haND up Proj and saw ms lee eventually... yah... she encouraged me to get into a college.. but i really dun wanna pressure.. i so want to get into mass com.. can anyone help me? haiz.. if not.. then fvS or ECH... yaH.. stiLL teacher ritE? hmm... is all cant get then worst to worst take tourism or business.. mom wanna me write something like wat i wanna be and the prospects.. haiz.. i seem to dunno anything... i really juz wanna leave and have a normal life.. not one fearing to be in debt all day.. haiz...

anyway.. wanna thx fiona for my second prezzie.. is pink too!! oh my.. u ppl can read my mind.. hee.. she got me pink accessories in a precious moments heart shape box.. so sweet.. damn touched.. cuz PINK!! heE... thx a million folks... heE..

then went out with cat they all.. missed her so much.. if can upload pic then i let u ppl see.. heE.. hmm... she got me my third xmas prezzie.. so sweet.. again.. i demanded for pink and my wish was granted.. hee.. hmm... then yah.. hee.. got home quite late.. i din slp whole nite last nite lehz.. maybe i shd go le.. tata.. nitez... yawnin whole day le...
win! *~aUrOra~* 22:07

DeaR bLog..
AiYoh.. i nO FeeLing dO ProJ.. mEi xīN qĭng dO ar.. aiyoh.. shd i be normal and type in small letters? haiz... feel so confused.. now is 5.55am le.. 09 hr and 05 min more to due date.. and wat am i waitin? i haven finish my proj.. this few days was really lazy.. i dun understand how some ppl like to go sch.. and seriously cant wait to go back.. aiyoh.. wat the.. suddenly feel holidays so short.. later.. in the later mornin.. i am goin to find ms. lee.. hopefully she's in sch.. and hopefully she can counsel me.. haiz.. feel so problematic sia.. haiz.. i really wanna quit.. i wanna know the proper precedure.. i wanna it end it all.. haiz..

then later some more.. gonna go meet cat and huiyi and eli.. heard joanna wanna accompany her sis to sch for dunno wat larz.. some ppl ar.. haiyoz.. cat wont be in singapore for long lorz.. cant let her be a majority temp first? haiz.. anyway.. tml gonna go out with them.. dunno if wenyan wanna watch the sound of color or dunno wat larz.. the di xia tie show lorz.. hmm.. feel uneZsee all proper letter.. hmm.. wanna cry.. dunno why.. maybe too stress on whether to leave or not? hmm.. these few days i aint normal.. on 31/12 mornin.. slp at 6++am and woke up at 9.30am.. then tht day go out with huiyi to countdown some more.. walk whole nite.. and still not sleepy ar.. muz be growing old le.. mom dun slp so much too.. i used to like to slp so much... dunno since when joined the nite owl clan.. hmm... read everybody's blog.. realised all got their own set of prob.. being a teenager aint ez.. but if all these all pass.. then actually being ateenager is the best part of life.. it's like not a gal.. not yet a woman.. haha.. evolving aR? hmm.. wanna mature.. but there's this childish me hidden in my heart.. juz now watch ms teen american dunno wat.. all of them look 20++++ but they are actually only 17.... look so diff from me lorz.. hmm.. so sorry to huijiao.. din accompany her eventually.. hmm.. i promised to hang out with her.. but.. if i go.. i assume things wont be nice for me too.. cuz my best frenz arent keen.. and.. yah.. some ppl is there.. and i'm suppose to forget him de.. hmm... so late le.. still typing blog at this time.. dunno my proj how ar.. heck care larz.. i also gonna ciaoz.. maybe teacher might not even see my proj cuz i ciaoz le.. hee... hmm.. 2004 le.. anew start le.. c'mon.. i will be the new me le.. pray hard ms lee in sch..

and to anybody who reads my blog.. plz help pray huien can get into mass com.. thankew... hmm... i really somehow now a bit despo to get in le... my hope and everything.. haiz.. then i gonna go find a proper job and juz lead life normally.. hopefully everything goes well...

hmm.. PLZ HELP ME PRAY.. thx woR.. /me praying hard...
win! *~aUrOra~* 05:55

Thursday, January 01, 2004
DeaR bLog..

HAPPiE NeW YeAR!!!

HeE.. Oh mY GoOdnESs.. I DiN manAge tO counT doWn.. HAiZ.. ToO maNy ppL le..haIYoz.. buT thE firEwORkS dAMn cooL lorZ.. huiYi anD fioNA keEp sAyinG is NatIOnaL dAy LEftoVer dE.. wAt thE.. buT i aM reaLLy gLad i couLd cELeBrAte wiTh bEst oF beSt fREn -- huIyI anD fioNa.. i meAn.. eRm... evEn wiThoUt somEone u lovE ceLEbratiNG wiTh u.. u knOw.. AT leAst u HaVe uR frEnz who wiLL shaRE uR joyS n soRRows... fioNa.. no mattEr wAt haPPens. wiLL supPorT ur deciSion dE..

okIe.. lEt mE staRt fROm thE staRt...

8.00pm -- wEnt TO meEt huiYi @ FAr eAsT... wEnt waLk wALk.. thEn We wALk tO kinO cuZ i haS sOme 20% diScount thiNgy.. thEn huIyi bouGht hER PLAy maGazine.. wAh.. i reGRet siA.. nV buY.. goT eveRythinG lorz.. eveRyboDy aLSo in thE maGazine.. aiYoh.. buT beSt.. haS jaY.. heE.. anYwaY... i bouGht 'yuAn wEi de xiA tiAn' thE booK... anD xjSn comiC #2 & #3.. wIThouT buyiNg #1.. aiyoH.. thEn wE tWo gaLS waLk tO heEren taKE neO priNt.. cuZ huiYi wAnnA thE 31/12/2003 stuFf.. laSt daY of thE yr.. aiYoh.. shE weiRd.. 1sT dAy of thE yr wHy nV gO tAKe.. haha.. =p anYwAy.. by thiS timE aLreaDy 10.00pm++ le.. hmM... sO poOr thiNg.. dEnniS is siCk.. aiYoh. wAt thE... anD thEn.. duNNo whY.. wE wEnt tO meEt joEL+huI jiaO thEy aLL cuZ hui jiAo maDe me prOmisE i wiLL go... sO.. i kePt mY promiSe anD meT thEm.... thEn fioNa joiNed us toO.. thEn wE staND thEre 'bai3 sui4'.. wat thE.. staNd theRe anD roT... goT somE wEirD ppL uSe thE dUnnO wAt sPraY me anD huiyi.. yaH.. fELt idioTic.. buT heLLo? iT's thE neW yeAr.. i dUn minD somE craZineSs.. thEn.. finALLy thEy say wAnna gO cheOng.. heLLo aR? ppL heRe aLL younG inNocEnt gaLs lehz.. aiYoh.. in thE enD wE sAy We ciAoz firSt.. thEn wE waLk tO eSPLAnaDe.. wE diN maKE it on tiMe.. cuZ.. whEn wE leFt joEl thEy aLL alReaDy 11.15++ hOw to maKe it on tiMe to eSplAnade.. quiTe fAr.. whEn wE gOt thEre.. wE diN "10,9,8,7..1" whIch iS prEttY sAd.. cuZ i dO thT eveRy YeAr in fROnt oF thE tv.. haiZ.. thEn gOT a LOt oF inDian ppL aR? wAs so sCaRed oF thEm.. thEn i paSS a reMArk thAt whY duN theY juZ gO baCk tO seRanGooN or liTTLe inDia cELEbraTe.. whY coMe sQuEEze wiTh us.. anD i wAs aLso sayiN tO huIyi tO prOTeCt hEr 'Pi gu".. Haha.. anYway.. thE firEwoRks wAs niCe.. sO bIg anD coOL.. anD i stiLL reMemBer.. At thE struCk oF miDnighT.. thE whOLe oF sIngAPore muZ bE either sms-inG or caLLing.. or staRhuB iS juZ tOo loUsy.. cuZ caNt caLL out or smS.. yaH.. fORgEt tO incLude.. aLso goT aSk whEre jeRemy iS anD timOthY loRz.. thEy boTh iS tWo sEts oF diFF ppL.. At sunTec anD maRinA cLubbinG reSPectiveLy.. aiYoh.. mY laSt smS wAs sEnd tO thE coRRect pErSon.. huiYi knEw.. shE gueSSed coRRectLy.. guEss iF u haVe a frEn foR toO lonG.. aLWays goin ouT toGetheR.. u tWo wiLL tenD to bE abLE tO 'teLEpathY'.. haha.. wAt the.. anYway.. fun larz.. buT wAt haPPen laTer iS veRy baD plAnning.. We weNt tO meEt DeRRy anD jeRemY sonG thEy aLL.. aiYoh.. wALk anD waLk.. bo liaOz aR.. haiZ.. anYway.. dun wAnna taLk a loT on tHem.. buT one thing.. anD thiS wRapS up EverythiNg i'm tryIng tO saY.. I'VE wALKed thE whoLe niTe!! untiL i wALk homE.. aiYoh... leG veRy extrEme sOur.. waNna reSt.. stupiD dErrY sAy caNT.. =p

12 noon juz passed.. i heard the bell.. heE.. happie new year to all again..
win! *~aUrOra~* 12:01

Wednesday, December 31, 2003



heE.. i wAs stiLL woRRied caNT be bLossoM.. haha.. yeA~


Legolas


Which Lord of the Rings person do you want? (many out comes for anyone plus pics to)
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You are Wolverine!

A loner by nature, you feel uncomfortable when
around those you don't know and even those you
do. You are awkward when it comes to
relationships, but fiercely loyal to those you
love.


Which X-Men character are you most like?
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aR? buT i prEfeR cycLops or jeAn gray leHz..


You should be dating a Gemini
21 May - 20 June
This mate is inquisitive, entertaining and
charming, liberal, broad-minded and youthful.
Though Gemini has a tendency to be impatient,
gossipy and sometimes irritable, this twin has
the ability to expresses his or her pent up
emotions during sex!


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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i aM a geMinI mySeLf lehz!!


You're a Caramel!! You are known for your
sweetness. You are comfortable with yourself,
and help others feel the same way about
themselves. You are generally friendly to
everyone, and believe in second chances.


Which kind of candy are you?
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win! *~aUrOra~* 12:23

i liKe boYfriEnd anD shou hou sO muCh!! the lYriCs sO swEet.. niCE!! 5566 roX.. roXy ruLz.. =p
win! *~aUrOra~* 11:34

hmM.. i staYed up stiLL 6++am to dO my proJ.. chaNGe thE 'diaO4 hao4'.. anD stuFF.. stiLL leFt a jiE yu anD a woRd.. haiZ.. theN wOke uP @ 9.30am.. aiYoh.. eYe feeLs daMn weiRd... i dUn waNNa sLp le.. i dUn waNNa waKe up aftEr 10 le.. iT's goNna be a neW yeAr anD 2003's leFt wiTh veRy litTLe tiMe le.. muZ maKe fuLL usE oF eVery sIngLe sEcond le.. heArd liYun's couSin gOt inVoLved in sOme aCCideNT anD shE couLdnT gO fOR theIR cAMp le.. noW lEft thE foUr oF theM.. suDDenLy.. i fELt sO loSt.. i wAs onE oF thEm thEn.. anD i goT 'kiCked ouT' suDDenLy.. haiZ.. anD eveRythinG sEem sO.. wat thE tOot.. i WanNa usE kaRen's fAv woRd tO scoLD eveRyboDy le.. 'toOtsTer'.. haha.. feeLs prEtty laME.. i thiNkin oF chaNging a neW skin foR 2004.. somEthinG morE pinK.. anD eh.. chAnge eveRythiNG oLd le.. i wAnna thrOW aWay thE me i aM noW.. no moRe 2003 huiEn le.. 2003 huiEn haSnt beEn a veRy gOOd gAl.. fELt i dId toO maNy wROng stuFf le.. thE choiCes i mAde anD stuFf.. haiZ.. i aiNt goNna chAnge mY 'staR' sEnse.. i'M stiLL gOnna suPPorT wiLber.. anD waLLAce anD xiE zhI.. anD wEI xiAO.. anD juZ my stAr sEnsE is goNna staY.. =p

hEe.. 2004 iS gOin tO be thE nEw me.. i'm noT goNNa be sO indEcisIvE aLL thE tiME.. anD leT ppL maKE choiCes fOR me.. i wAnna be inDepenDent.. maTure.. i muZ oveRcoMe my owN baTtle..

i likE thE froDo-sAm conVersation in fIona's bLog..
Frodo: I can't do this, Sam.
Sam: I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened?
Sam: But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer.
Sam: Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something. Even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.
Frodo: What are we holding on to, Sam?
Sam: That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo. And it's worth fighting for.
sEem sO meANinGfuL.. hmM.. liFe.. is juZ bitS of jigsaw puZZle.. whEn u hAve a jigsAw piEce tht sEems impoSsibLE eveRywheRe... We teNd tO gEt fRustratEd anD feEL bLur.. thEre wiLL sURe bE soME plAce tO feEL up thAt jiGsaW piEce.. no mattEr wAt.. muZ be patiEnt.. hmM..

suDdEnLy... i caNT trUst reLatioNships.. eveRyboDy aROunD me haD theiR baD expeRience.. i dUnnO why.. mAYbe juZ afraId.. hmM...

i muZ maKE a deCIsion.. quiCk.. no matteR wAt.. i feLt i rathEr dEterminEd to quiT onCe anD foR aLL.. it'S goOd byE to a staBLe teAchinG caReeR.. anD a heLLo to my nEw liFe..
win! *~aUrOra~* 11:28

hmM.. aLSo duNno how i fEeL de.. thE pinK beTTy boOp waLLet is chiLdisH.. but.. eH.. cutE larz.. hoW caN anyboDy sEe PinK stuFf anD thinK of mE anD juZ buy for me de... heE.. my firSt xmAs pRezziE thiS yr.. heE.. thX bC! heE.. hmM..

thE neW yeAr iS gonNA be herE agaiN.. heE.. tML!!
nEw yeAR reSOlutioN 2004 (eH.. i thinK i copiEd fioNa's wAy..)
pHysiCaLLy..
1) hoPe cAN Dye a moRe obviouS haiR coLor..
2) mUZ geT eAr piErcEd fiRst thiNG on mY bdAy...
3) fiNd a joB wiTh xinLi..
4) earN moRE $$ n ChangE mY cLoseT..
5) haNg oUt more wiTh fRenz...
6) LOSE weiGht..
7) exerCise..
8) reaD moRe boOks...
9) bE morE puntuAL..
10) i wANna gEt inTO maSS coM!!
11) pRay moRe ofTen thT i caN get intO maSS coM..
12) finD out moRe on maSS coM... ....

MEntaLLy AR?
1) QUIt COurSE le lAr..
2) reaLLy hope can get into maSs coM..
3) pRay Day anD niGht or wHEnEveR goT chANce thAt i caN gEt into maSs coM..
4) sTop beING B.L.U.R!!!
5) bE leSS stuBborN
6) stOp thiNkin of guyS?
7) stuDy haRd in wAtEva neW courSE (hoPefuLLy is maSs coM)
8) hoPe i caN reALLY forGet somE aSShoLe oncE anD foR aLL...
9) imProvE reLAtion with siSteR
10) impROVe reLAtiOn wiTh mOm anD dAd....
11) maSS coM?
12) no moRe 2003 huIEn le.. it'S 2004 le..

dO u ppL knOw? 12 iS mY lucKy numBeR? aS in.. mY fAv numBer.. huiEn 2003
win! *~aUrOra~* 02:07

Tuesday, December 30, 2003
Funny flash joke:
http://comic.yam.com/class/3bow/swf/pili.swf

win! *~aUrOra~* 14:36

How to Know If You Are In Love
What, then, is this elusive thing called love that everyone so desperately needs? Sometimes, we sort of like this girl because she is beautiful ? Or the girl likes him because he is handsome? But this kind of "Cinderella Syndrome" when the girl is waiting on her Prince Charming, is not real love. It is better known as "infatuation", and there is a vast difference between it and real love. Here, we help you to differentiate and find out if you are really in love and not just infatuation.

Infatuation
Infatuation is a feeling; real love involves a commitment also. Infatuation is just love of emotion. Real love, though, is love of devotion. Only the emotions are affected in infatuation, but in real love both the emotions and the will are involved. Next, a person "fall into" infatuation, but "grows into" real love. Guys, have you ever seen a girl who was so beautiful that you thought you'd faint? This is infatuation! It is based totally on physical attraction; often you don't know much in-depth about the person you so-called love. Thus, infatuation is mostly biological. Also remember, never tell a girl you love her, unless you are willing to marry her.

Then, infatuation is basically selfish where real love is basically selfless . Infatuation is more interested in satisfying yourself and the "feeling" than it is in the other person. Real love is primarily interested in the other person. It seeks to give instead of get.. Love unselfishly seeks the highest good for the other person. Lastly, infatuation is weakened by time and separation where real love is strengthened by time and separation. This does not mean that there will be no pain in separation. On the contrary, there is great pain in separation if you are truly in love.

Love
Now you know what is infatuation, we will go on to discuss about the details of a true love.

Love is patient. The word translated "patient" means to wait patiently for the fulfillment of expectations. When you have diffculty dating this girl and she does not want to come out, if you truly love her, you will not complain and blame her, you must look at the situation from her point of view - maybe she is having some problems which prevented her from coming out. You must react to it with patience and understanding. Next, have you ever met someone you liked so much that you wanted to push the relationship and make it progress faster? Sure you have! Love, however, is willing to give a relationship time to grow at a natural pace. It does not push but is willing to wait for the relationship to grow at a rate that is satisfactory to both parties. Love is Kind. Love seeks to encourage and build up others. It respects the feelings and emotions of others.. It finds its greatest satisfaction in making others happy.

You can do the following:
1.Give one another things such as gifts and encouragment cards.
2.Compliment one another. Magnify the other party's strength.
3.Listen to one another. Pay close attention to what each of you has to say and make each other feel that what each says is important.
4.Treat one another special in public. Compliment and encourage one another sincerely in the presence of others.

Love is Not Jealous
Jealousy usually indicates an insecure and immature heart. Love wants the best for others, but jealousy is possessive. Jealous is reflected in the childish statement, "If he is going to talk to her, then he can just forget about me!" Often, one person wants to totally possess the other and to restrict her relationships with others.

Love is Not Brag
Love is not a windbag and is not anxious to impress. Often a guy will brag to a girl, trying to impress her so that she will like him. A truly great person, however, does not need to exalt himself! Others will exalt him.

Love is Not Arrogant
Love is not conceited, boastful, cocky, or stuck-up. Love, instead, is humble and has a servant attitude. Sometimes, a guy may come across to a girl with an "I can take you or leave you" attitude. His demeanour implies, "You ought to be thankful that somebody as neat as me is dating you." Of course, this is not love.

Love always covers
This word cover means to pass over in silence, to keep confidential. Love is patient with the faults of others. It doesn't critcise and broadcast to the world the faults of others. Love is there even when it knows the other is not perfect.

Love always Perseveres
Love always stands its ground and holds out. It will outlast anything. It will even love in the face of unreturned love.Real love will last though all sorts of trials, tribulations and stresses.

Love is Not Provoked
This means that love has a long fuse. It does not become irritated and angry. It is not easily offended. Love does not seek its own This is the heart of love. Love is other-centred rather than self-centred. Love says, "I love you, I want to give to you." Selfishness says, "I love you, I want you!"

Love does not act unbecomingly
This means that love does not behave disgracefully, dishourably or indecently. It does not embarrass others by its action. It is characterised by tact and sensitivity. This also means that love should have good manners. Be sure to do little things like opening doors for your girl, or offering her your arm when you walk together.

Love is forgiving
Lastly, this is a MUST for a successful love story. If a guy is not willing to forgive and forget when his girlfriend is one hour late, he is not exhibiting love. Love doesn't hold grudges when it has been wronged. It doesn't remain resentful. Remember this: Love forgets past failures and sins.
win! *~aUrOra~* 14:33

26 Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do
1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.
2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.
3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence.
4. Give you the remote control during the game.
5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.
6. Play with your hair.
7. His hands always find yours.
8. Be cute when he really wants something.
9. Offer you plenty of massages.
10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.
11. Never run out of love.
12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.
13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.
14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
16. Smile a lot.
17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you.
18. Appreciate you.
19. Help others out.
20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each others company, even when his friends are watching.
22. Sing, even if he can't.
23. Have a creative sense of humor.
24. Stare at you.
25. Call for no reason.
26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves u that much to quit it.

win! *~aUrOra~* 14:31

30 Things Guys Want Girls To Know!!

1. We're not as perverted as you think we all are.
2. No matter what YOU say, your ex-boyfriend IS an ass hole.
3. We like you to give us hugs and kisses sometimes too.
4. Don't argue with us when we call you beautiful.
5. Don't treat us like shit, what goes around comes around.
6. We know you're pretty, that's one of the reason's we're going out with you.
7. Don't go into detail about your period. It scares us.
8. If you have cramps and we ask you what's wrong, just tell us it's that time of the month and nothing more.
9. If you really liked us for us, you would let us think that our mustache, beard, or sideburns looked cool.
10. We never shave our legs. So get over it.
11. NEVER ask us if you can put makeup on us. It's just wrong.
12. Don't make bets about us, because one of your friends will tell us, if you don't.
13. When we tell you that you're not fat, believe us.
14. We absolutely do not care about the Backstreet Boys, *NSYNC, 98 Degrees, or what any other guy looks like for that matter.
15. We may not be able to pee accurately all of the time, but at least we can stand up and go pee.
16. Just cause you think you're always right, doesn't mean that you don't have to apologize when you do something "wrong."
17. You expect us to say and do sweet things for you, but it would be nice if you did the same every once in a while. We like to know that you love us.
18. We can't always be spontaneous, so try to help us make the plans sometimes.
19. Don't ask us to beat up another guy for you, cause you might get what you wish for.
20. Never kick us in the nuts "just to see what we would say". That's just mean.
21. Never pretend like you are going to break up with us and laugh when we believe you.
22. Pamela Anderson's boobs aren't fake anymore, but we like yours better anyway.
23. Size doesn't matter, except to idiots who don't want a relationship.
24. PMS is not an excuse.
25. If you want us to put the seat down when we're done, you should put it up when you're done.
26. Don't tell us how cute your ex-boyfriend was. That doesn't turn us on.
27. And always remember: The way to a guys heart is through his stomach..... and maybe....oh nevermind.
28. NEVER ask us to kiss other guys. You might be that comfy with your friends, but to us it's just wrong.
29. We always notice how funny it is after your rip out our heart, stick it down our throat and still want to be friends.
30. And last but not least: We know you're not always right, but we'll pretend like you are anyway.

win! *~aUrOra~* 14:24

You represent... playfulness.
Playfulness can often be mistaken for sluttiness or
flirtiness... Flirting is something you enjoy
doing, but you're mostly just about having fun.
You're into partying, and it's seems that
people enjoy your company as much as you enjoy
their's.


What feeling do you represent?
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win! *~aUrOra~* 14:23

Monday, December 29, 2003
deAr bLog..
It's suCh a fiNe day toDay.. hmM.. it's suCh a fine day tO gO shoPping... a nO-rain daY in a RainY seaSon.. peRfecT tO picniC toO.. hEe.. peRhaPs caN organiSe an OutIng tO sentOsa wiTh aLL ouR frEnz.. maYbe a bhSs 2002 graDuatE outinG? wiLL anyboDy gO?

buT duNno why.. maYbe homE aLL the timE.. i suDDEnLy sO vEry muCh feLt likE crYing.. anD i toLd onLy onE peRson i feLT likE cryIng anD aSk hiM to say something tO leT me crY.. but hE diN.. he asK iF it waS famiLy maTTer... i DuNno.. i guEsS.. it wAs juZ me.. oR mayBe he waS riGht toO? i juZ toO suFFocateD at homE.. haVe i loSt the saniTy in me? aM i stiLL me? or haVe i chaNged? for thE bettER or thE worSt? i hopE i haVe maturEd..

suDdenLy i miSs mY freNz so muCh.. frOm wEnyan anD simIao, tO ivAn, tO xiNLi anD juZ eveRyboDy.. i haVen sEen theM foR sO loNg.. i miSs my frEnz.. i duNno.. i feLt thEy haVe forGotTen mY exisTencE... i no moRe feLt thE cLoseneSs wiTH somE frEnz.. i feLT i'm no moRe in soTong famiLy.. i'vE toO manY grP oF freNz baCk thEn.. i Was tOo grEedy.. vEry GrEEDy.. i'M afrAid oF loneLineSs.. i feLT i haVe neGlecteD somE freNZ.. so whEn thEy diN caRe abT me.. iT waSnt thEir faULt.. iT wAs juZ me.. maYbe iS aLL thiS juZ retrIbutioN timE? i hAd beEn grEedy.. sOme frenz haVe gonE.. maYbe iF i saY "hEY! it's huIEn~ heRe.. remEMbeR?" theY miGht "huH? who'S huI waT en aR?" haiZ.. paYbaCk time...

i reaLised.. tHou aLL of frEnz may seEM to bE stiLL witH me..yeT i haVe beEn aLone aLL alonG.. soMe wounDs woNt seeM to heaL.. thE paiN juZ seEM toO reaL.. thEre's juZ too muCh thAt timE caNnOt erAse.. i knOw.. iF i lEt iT aLL go.. i wOnt be aBLe to coMe baCk agaiN.. mAYbe i caNt eveN get to EaRLy chiLdhoOd eDuatioN.. beCauSe iT wiLL stiLL linK to MOE de.. yeAh?
i muZ aDmit... i haVe a veRy goOd buNch oF freNz arOund me.. okIe.. maYbe noT buNch baHz.. buT theY reaLLy caRe a Lot fOr mE... i caN sEe... hmM... fRenz aRe GOD's gReatEst giFts tO uS huMan beinG.. hmM.. i liKe aLL mY freNZ!! heE.. thX huiYi fOr beIng mY frEn.. anD to fIoNa tOo... thE finaL deCisiOn iS aLL up tO me.. u gaLz reaLLy caN be GrEat cOunseLLors.. hmM.. thOu i'M stiLL conFusE abT mY deCisIon.. i aM reaLLy reaDy tO giVe iT aLL uP sInce thE begInniN.. i dUn wANna liVe in The daRk anYmoRe.. hmM.. yeAh? i knOw huiYi.. thiS is an instanT joB.. buT.. i duNno.. i feLt.. aS thou i'M losIng interest in chineSe day bY day.. juZ vernOn maY notIce so loNg ago.. my EngLish stanDard is drOpping.. i haVe forGottEn somE of thE easieSt enGlish words.. yaH.. i knOw of mY stubboRn-eSs.. it's veRy seRiouS caSe le... anD.. i muZ be a roLE moDel.. huH? i'VE suFFer beIng a prEfeCt.. duTy vS frEnz.. i'Ve losT somE frEnz.. anD gaIn somE eneMies.. mE? a leAd modEL? timE is runNin out i knOw...

i haVen beEn a very honEst peRson in mY liFe.. i haVe beEn rebeLLious.. tOO mUch..

I waNna watch moNa lisA smile !!
win! *~aUrOra~* 18:45

Sunday, December 28, 2003
huiyI saY i nV sO lonG nv sEe heR laRz.. shE say i exageRate.. wAt thE.. haiZ.. anYway.. meT heR toDay... shE retuRn mE mY vCD anD genEraL paPer booK.S anD my cD.. anD juZ eveRything.. sO heAvy.. haiyOz.. gO ouT wiTh heR daMn coOL de lorz.. whoLe daY out... untiL in dUn waNna gO homE le.. thou goT thE supEr heAvy baG.. anD aLso my supEr bULky vioLin.. haiZ... shoPPin is stiLL my faV.. i noT likE somE ppL who wouLd rathEr speNd leSs on fOod anD rathEr shoP.. i aM thE insTALLment kinDa gaL.. Eh.. paMpeR myseLf bY eaTin goOd foOd.. nV to cheApskaTe wiTh mYseLF.. heE... anD aLSo speNd on neceSAry stuFF.. heE.. wat thE~ hmM...

anD thEn aR.. fioNa.. muZ reMEmbeR aR:
H.U.i.E.n wrote:
i'M thinKing oF hoW dEsmonD loOk.. sO long diN sEe hiM le.. fioNa saY hE haS shorT haiR noW.. that i knOw.. anD hE's in spEc? aR? suRe veRy cuTe de..hmM.. wonDer whEn caN sEe hiM agaIn..
and F.I.o.N.a want to tell mE:
as another extra christmas present, i am gonna email or send it to ur hp.... a picture of desmond in specs..!
Dun fORgEt woR.. beSt iF caN seNd to phOne.. hahA.. thEn cAn sEt As waLLpapeR.. =p heE... wat the.. toDay nV comE meEt me foR dinNer.. ppL waNna sEe him.. haHA... wat thE..

haiZ.. wat sHd i dO!!
win! *~aUrOra~* 21:51

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~*When you're a teenage Girl*~
* Your friends are more important than your family
* Boyfriends are a major priority
* It takes hours to get ready even to go to someplace stupid because ur afraid you'll see someone u know lol!
* You sneakout to meet a friend or a guy
* You start to become irritated over little things ( P.M.S!)
* You whine about guys to everyone
* You are embarrsed to go to the mall with your parents
* You beg your parents for money
* You know what the " BASES" are, and u have been to some
* You find the real "use' of a basement and a bedroom window
* You need new clothes all the time
* You go to parties
* You go for " walks" to find guys
* You'll do just about anything for attention
win! *~aUrOra~* 21:39

tO fioNa...

yaH.. teaChinG maY bE my chiLdhooD dreaM anD eH... i aLWayS siT in frOnt oF thE whitEboArd in mY hSe.. anD eH.. teAch imaginArY kiDs.. haiZ.. feeL so stEw-piG.. thEn eH.. wiLL speNd a LoT oF time.. tHinkIng of naMes foR mY imaginAry studEnts.. thinKing baCk thEn.. sO stuPiD.. i knOw i aiNt reAdy fOR aLL thiS to bE reAl.. i knOw mY atttuDe... i dUn wAnna be a teAcheR anD gruMbLe thE whoLe oF liFe.. i reAd xi baO.. anD i DUn wAnnA reGret laTer.. it's nOt 1 oR 2 yrS i wAs waSte.. it'S 9 yrS gaL... anD maSS coM is a fuLL timE courSe..

aiyoH.. i shD geT goiN foR viOLin clAss lE.. iF noT suRe latE.. clAss @ 10.30.. noW alReaDy 9.40.. haVen chaNge yeT.. hmM.. bYe bLog..

anD suDDenLy. i feLt sO aLone.. aS thou wenyaN theY aLL dUn wANT me le.. anD huiYi aLWays sayinG i caNt gO ouT.. anD fioNa toO. anD iF eveRytimE liKe thiS.. theY goNna haVe nEW beZt freNz le.. T.T i haTe mY liFe anD mY faMiLy.. esP mY faMiLy.. aCtuaLLY i wANna quiT aLso to gO agaiNst theM de.. haiZ.. wat shD i dO? haiZ.. reaLLY muZ chaNge le.. 9.45 lE.. haiZ.. sudDenLY... i raTheR taKe timE maChinE anD gO baCK to mY chiLdhoOd days.. nV to reTurn to reaLity agaIn.. i haVe beEn forGotTen.. i reaLisEd... xinLi.. shE's loSt toO.. aS in.. i somEhoW feeL losT aLL thE bonDs wiTh aLL my frenz le.. tata bLog..
win! *~aUrOra~* 09:48